Category: Inspiration

I Can “Go Negative” Very Quickly

When I started Operation INSPIRATION in 2005, I also committed myself to ongoing self-improvement so that I could “walk my talk.”  With nearly 16 years in the corporate jungle under my belt, one of the realizations I came to was how easily and quickly my mood shifted when pessimism, bad moods, anger or any unfavorable situation came my way.  Looking back, I am shocked at how negative I was and sometimes amazed that I survived in that environment for so long.

Even after years of working to strengthen this aspect of my personality, with the ups and downs of my healing journey, I have allowed myself to “go negative” a number of times in the past year and it scared me.  For example, each time I had a wound check-up, I was extremely anxious because I did not know what I was going to face.

Would the wound be smaller or would the measurements remain the same? Plateaus are hell on the morale.

Would the doctors mention surgery again?  We are have opposing views about that point.  While I am in favor of waiting it out and letting my body heal naturally, (Thankfully, my family backed me up on this.), the doctors–somewhat understandably, I suppose–wanted to see me heal more quickly.  So they have pushed surgery more and more often, especially in the past few months.  During one check-up last June, I felt so bullied that I said,

“Congratulations.  You’ve broken me.  Let’s just do the surgery.”

That was on a Friday.  When I got home, I felt so down that I decided to take the weekend to gather myself.  It took more than a day to boost my emotional strength back up.  But, by Sunday I was thinking clearly again.  I had made an emotional decision in that exam room, rather than a well-thought out decision.  So I called the doctor’s office the following Monday to let them know that I was taking the time I needed to make a an informed decision that was right for me.

That was a difficult phone call to make.  But once I did it, I felt empowered.  While I wouldn’t wish these experiences on anyone, it was a reminder of some valuable lessons:

  • While the doctors can make their recommendations and preferences knows for a course of treatment, it’s ultimately my decision to either have surgery or allow my body heal naturally.
  • Self-care is not just about the physical. Full self-care also includes psychological, spiritual and emotional care, and it’s alright to take the time to tend to my psychlogical, spiritual and emotional well-being and clear my head.
  • I am human and there is no need to feel badly about feeling overwhelmed.  Everyone gets overwhelmed.
  • To me this is the one of the most empowering lessons:  I am a sensitive person and I often feel like I have to apologize for that.  But I don’t.  It’s part of who I am.

Right now, it looks as if my wound is very close to healing… ,2 cm in length, width and depth as of this writing.  So, even though I am maintaining an open mind in the event that there are no other options and surgery becomes necessary, I remain positive and strong in my resolve to close up this pressure wound by as natural means as possible.  And so, the healing journey continues…

I would love to hear your experiences with negativity and how you deal with it.  Please comment below, InspiraGang.

All the Best to You,





Food, Not-So-Glorious Food

Huge irony … The night before my pressure wound diagnosis, I wrote and published a blog post about how much I hate the taste of most vegetables.  When I began redoing this website, I took that post down.  That was a low point.  I didn’t realize how negative I was being and how deep in denial I was about my weight issue.

News of the pressure wound hit me like a ton of bricks and I had a huge cry in the doctor’s office.  Prior to writing that vegetable-hating blog entry, I had spent the summer trying to make some gradual, healthy changes in my nutrition, and vegetables were a huge hurdle.  To say that I gagged at the taste and texture of most vegetables was not an overstatement.

Now I was faced with having to revamp my nutritional habits right away to give my body the best chance to heal, which meant choking down more vegetables, of course.  The doctor never even said I had to lose weight.  I just knew.

When you are in a prone position, i.e, on bed rest, for an extended amount of time, it is best to stay away from foods that are not as easily digestible.  So, I had to cut beef almost entirely out of my food plan. But protein is essential to wound healing, so I can still eat chicken, fish, eggs and my all-time favorite food, cheese.  Cheese in moderation, as it is also, of course, a fat.  But I can still eat it—thank you, God.  However, most of the so-called bad fats and carbs are now gone.  Pumpernickel and rye bread have replaced white bread, brown rice has replaced white rice, and potatoes are almost non-existent in my nutrition plan.  I can’t tell you the last time I had a French fry or a potato chip.

Yes, a potato is a vegetable, but I have to stick to the healthier vegetables.  Cooked vegetables are the least palatable to me–hence, the gagging–so I primarily eat raw vegetables in salads with shrimp and chicken to make meals more appealing.  (Again, socking down the protein to help the wound heal.)

Here’s the exception to my statement about cooked vegetables: soups.  I really enjoy soups.  It’s all about a well-cooked bone broth.  Bone broths make vegetable tastier.

Do I eat all vegetables?  No.  There are still some I refuse to eat.  If you try to feed me Brussels sprouts, turnips, parsnips, broccoli, cauliflower or cooked cabbage (Red cabbage and cole slaw are okay.), while I will refrain from throwing them back at you, I simply won’t eat them.

The fact is that eating is nowhere near as pleasurable as it used to be.

But… and this is a huge but … My butt is NOT huge anymore.

While that doesn’t change the taste of vegetables, I did switch my mindset about having to eat them because I can now feel and see their benefits, which far outweigh the unpleasant taste (Pun intended.):

  • I lost 50 pounds.
  • My blood pressure is under control.
  • I feel more energetic and much healthier.
  • I feel and look more attractive. (Yes, sexier.)
  • I have a larger and more attractive selection of wardrobe options.

Also, when I do indulge too much in the less healthy foods, I feel the negative effects even more intensely.  The bloating is very uncomfortable and I feel lethargic to the point of falling into a “carb coma”, that nap I have to take about an hour after wolfing down a carb-heavy meal.  These rare, post weight loss carb comas bring about embarrassing memories of falling asleep on more than one occasion among happy, boisterous gatherings of family and friends.  Since I no longer wish to fall asleep and miss any part of a fun party, I am done with carb comas.

As I close out this blog entry, here is my question for you, InspiraGang:

What foods do you dislike and how do you make them more appealing?

Wishing You the Best Health,






Affirmation: I AM HEALING

My world changed drastically on August 28, 2017.

That was the day I was diagnosed with a pressure wound that went straight to the bone. I was put on immediate bed rest so it, and I, could heal.

That would become the operative word–HEAL–especially when I realized one day that neither of my doctors had actually said that the wound would heal. So I knew the healing had to start with me and I took charge of the situation.  I began saying the affirmation to myself AND out loud several times a day. It became my mantra: I am healing.  I Am Healing.  I AM HEALING.

Whenever I begin to doubt my body’s ability to heal, I repeat that mantra until I am feeling strong and confident again.  I am a firm believer that a positive frame of mind is vital to the healing process and affirmations are a great tool to use to strengthen one’s resolve.

I knew it would take months to heal and I have always been okay with that fact because, nearly a year later, not only has my wound almost healed, but I am physically, mentally and emotionally healthier than ever.

I have improved my nutrition, I exercise (weights, bands and yoga) consistently, I’ve lost 50 pounds, and my blood pressure is under control.  I also make sure I get enough sleep, which has helped me to work and take care of my responsibilities more efficiently.

Also, while I have been meditating for over 13 years, I now meditate daily, which has made all the differences.

In addition to my healing mantra, I write my affirmations in my journal every day to reinforce them.  This is my current list of affirmations and, as I add others, I will share them with you:

I love.

I am loved.

I am healing.

I am healthy.

I make healthy decisions.

My derrière is healing more each day. (That one makes me smile. I like the word derrière.)

I am creative.

I am prolific.

I welcome abundance in optimum health, well-being and finances.

What are your affirmations?  I would love to see them.  Please share them in the comments below.

Yours in Health and Positivism,