I knew down deep that this was not going to be a healing week. I got a bit careless and sat up in bed too much, so I still have a layer of skin that needs to heal before I can start my wheelchair sitting protocol. I’m angry at myself because I know better and I want to heal. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I am almost there. ALMOST.
For the first time in the past 14 months, I was truly depressed. However, I have gotten to a point in my life where I can only stay depressed for a short time before I feel I have to bounce back from it or I’ll get lost in a sea of negativity. I am not about to let that happen. I have to maintain a positive mindset so I can heal.
What I have to do to get myself out of a depression is look for the lessons that a tough situation is trying to teach me. As lofty as that might sound, it’s true. I have a feeling that the better I learn the lessons, the faster I will get out of said situation. I don’t know if that is overly optimistic of me, but I hope it’s true.
Looking at my life prior to the pressure wound diagnosis, I was wasting time procrastinating and indulging in habits that were not getting me anywhere (too much TV) and keeping me unhealthy (overeating the wrong things). My mission with Operation INSPIRATION is to help people create and live their most fulfilling lives. But, if I’m not doing that myself, how can I effectively help others do it?
The pressure wound was my wake-up call and, as much as it sucks, I am grateful for it. The most valuable lessons I have learned this year are realizing what is most important to me and to value my time more by focusing on those things. Had I not gotten the pressure wound, I might not have become as healthy as I am or be as focused as I am on creating the life I want to live. I am now a better, stronger person and I know I will be much more effective in my Operation INSPIRATION work because of this whole experience.
In future blogs and workshops, I will share with you how I am bouncing back after this year of recovery to become the person I want to be and what I am doing to create my own most fulfilling life. I hope you will join me in the journey.